Well, chemo is all finished and I had my follow up appointment today. Doctor is very confident that I am going to have a full recovery, and my outlook is very positive. I do have to be on close observation for the next 2 years, with doctor appointments every 2 months but thats a small price to pay.
My first appointment is going to be April 17th when I will get a full bloodwork with tumor markers along with a chest xray to look for anything that may be lurking around.
I have been feeling pretty good, just tired overall but its nice to be feeling better lately. Im really looking forward to having a clean xray and bloodwork so that a bit of the anxiety can be put to rest about wether or not I have completely gotten rid of the cancer.
Thank you again to everyone of my cheerleaders as I have been going through this. I appreciate everything, and am planning on still updating this blog atleast once a week.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Feelin' better update
Man, it has been a little while since I posted on here but to my defense this second round of Chemo has been rough. I feel like I gave myself a false sense of security during the first round about how well I felt and this round of chemo snuck up behind me and just layed me out hard.
My last full week of chemotherapy is done (as far as I know) which is a real burden that is off my back right now because to be honest I dont know how the people do it that need to have many more months of treatment than I do at the moment. Those people are real troopers, and they need every bit of encouragement they can get while going through this hard time.
Over the weekend, I really just slept. All day, all night just trying to sleep because everything else felt almost unmanageable to do. I was planning on going to work Monday and then going Tuesday for my chemo but Monday just wasn't happening. The only way I can really explain how I felt is by saying that I just felt like someone unplugged me or took out my batteries. Even going to get a drink of water or use the restroom seemed like a task that could take all day and it kind of got me into a funk.
I'm feeling much better today although not perfect but I have to take what I can get at this point. I am starting to see that silver lining or the end of the road and hopefully I wont have any speed bumps impeding my progress toward a full recovery from this awful disease.
I had a hard realization the other day when I thought about how I was downplaying my own condition and feelings to spare my family and friends from unwanted worries on my part. I've spent a lot of time saying how I feel good and I'm OK and that things are going well but I guess its just in my nature to not have people worrying about me. The hard truth is that Cancer is a horrible terrible disease, and even I fooled myself into thinking I was feeling better than I actually am. I've never been more tired, exhausted, frustrated, angry, weak, concerned and helpless than I have felt in the past months and it is the constant support and encouragement I get from my family, friends, coworkers, nurses, doctors and readers that even makes this remotely bearable. Like the good soldier I always wanted to be, I am going to move forward and take whatever life throws at me but know that you are appreciated in these times.
My last full week of chemotherapy is done (as far as I know) which is a real burden that is off my back right now because to be honest I dont know how the people do it that need to have many more months of treatment than I do at the moment. Those people are real troopers, and they need every bit of encouragement they can get while going through this hard time.
Over the weekend, I really just slept. All day, all night just trying to sleep because everything else felt almost unmanageable to do. I was planning on going to work Monday and then going Tuesday for my chemo but Monday just wasn't happening. The only way I can really explain how I felt is by saying that I just felt like someone unplugged me or took out my batteries. Even going to get a drink of water or use the restroom seemed like a task that could take all day and it kind of got me into a funk.
I'm feeling much better today although not perfect but I have to take what I can get at this point. I am starting to see that silver lining or the end of the road and hopefully I wont have any speed bumps impeding my progress toward a full recovery from this awful disease.
I had a hard realization the other day when I thought about how I was downplaying my own condition and feelings to spare my family and friends from unwanted worries on my part. I've spent a lot of time saying how I feel good and I'm OK and that things are going well but I guess its just in my nature to not have people worrying about me. The hard truth is that Cancer is a horrible terrible disease, and even I fooled myself into thinking I was feeling better than I actually am. I've never been more tired, exhausted, frustrated, angry, weak, concerned and helpless than I have felt in the past months and it is the constant support and encouragement I get from my family, friends, coworkers, nurses, doctors and readers that even makes this remotely bearable. Like the good soldier I always wanted to be, I am going to move forward and take whatever life throws at me but know that you are appreciated in these times.
Friday, February 3, 2012
Day Five: 1-3pm
On my last hydrating bag and just itching to get out of here tonight. Six hours is a long time to sit anywhere let alone hooked up to these crazy chemicals.
Going to have a nice relaxing weekend I hope, and just spend stone time doing a whole lot of nothing. Need to regenerate my good cells.
This hell well has truly been a mental obstacle for me, and I am so glad that were are looking at the end of the yellow brick road here.
Day Five: 10-1pm
Morning has gone well, kindof one of those days where in just ready to be done.
This week has been very cumulative as far as how I have been feeling just a little more worn down each day. Its nice to see the light at the end of the tunnel though and I have been able to tough it out fairly well which has worked out OK so far.
Dad came by today to visit, nice to see a new face stop by to talk a bit.
Overall I'm feeling OK, just ready to be done for the week.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Day Four: 12-230pm
Spent quite a bit of time today just kind of snoozing in and out, not feeling so hot today. Seems like its going to be one of those go home and go straight to bed type of days.
Not much to update, everything is going smoothly as expected just having a low morale day.
Day Four: 10-12pm
Today has been an odd day so far, feeling really anxious for some reason which is making me a bit uneasy today.
Got myself all hooked up for my treatment and man does my arm look abused. Small tip for anyone reading, go for the port you wont regret it. Kinda wish I would have gotten one to begin with but hindsight is 20/20 I suppose. Only a few more to go.
Days seem to get longer and longer the closer I am to getting finished with treatment. Feel like I am ready to make some changes in life and just use this obstacle as a jumping off point for something new.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Day Three: Back Home
Today was a good day at treatment, I have just been really tired but overall I have felt decent. Slowly but surely my right arm seems to be feeling a little better each day which is really nice to know. It is nice to catch up on my sleep, still trying to recover from the wacky sleepover at the hospital on Sunday.
Treatment is going well, only 2 more days left of Hell Week, and then 2 more treatments left until I am hopefully going to be only on observation for the next 20-30 years :).
Probably going to eat some grub and head to bed for the night, more updates tomorrow!
Treatment is going well, only 2 more days left of Hell Week, and then 2 more treatments left until I am hopefully going to be only on observation for the next 20-30 years :).
Probably going to eat some grub and head to bed for the night, more updates tomorrow!
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